It's been quite a few days since I've blogged.
I hada a few bad days after attending my daughter's school PTA meeting last week. My daughter , Ainsley, started Kindergarten this year and is attending the same school as her big sister, my Olivia did for first through third grades. The same school that local news stations camped out in front of after Olivia's death was public knowledge.
When Olivia was in grade school, I was a working mom so I was unable to do a lot of the things that I am now able to do since I no longer work. It made me sad that I didn't attending the Pancakes with the Principal breakfast with Olivia. I never even considered that maybe she felt bad not having a parent with her while other kids did have parents with them. My guilt was overwhelming for me when I returned home after the meeting last Thursday. I felt like the worst mom ever.
I know that I wasn't a bad mom but I would have given anything to change my role back then.
I am going to be a better blogger to my followers.